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No I don't love you anymore!

*No I don't love you anymore*

No I don't think about you anymore...
Its been days since we have moved apart
And now I have given my life a fresh start
Yet somewhere deep inside my soul
There is a never ending piercing hole
That reminds me I'll never be complete again
The smile on my lips is nothing but a hidden pain.....

No I don't miss you anymore
I keep myself indulge in what I like
Memories of old times help me survive
I pour down feelings of my heart into words
But, like you, words also seem to break my trust
I end up staring at the blank space
Time is moving ahead, I'm losing the race....

No I don't cry for you anymore
Its not that I have forgotten my past
I never thought our love will ever last
My dreams still have your dark shadows
When these shadows will stop appearing no one knows
My eyes miss your presence but now they don't cry
Forgetting you is impossible and now I don't even try....

No I don't feel lonely anymore
Its not that I wasn't alive before you
But after meeting you I felt rejunavated and new
You never said one day you would leave me alone
I never knew my life will turn into a cyclone
Now I have learnt to live with my loneliness
It hugs me in its embrace whenever I feel helpless....

No I don't feel cheated on anymore
Its not that I have thrown my pain in trash
The wounds you made on my heart are still fresh
For you playing with my feelings and breaking my heart was never a crime
And now I have accepted that trusting you blindly was the mistake of mine
But today I have no regrets or complains with my life
Maybe this was destined to happen and was right

No I don't think about you anymore
No I don't miss you anymore
No I don't cry for you anymore
No I don't feel lonely anymore
No I don't feel cheated on anymore
Yet...
There is a part of me which still cares for you

My lips even today murmur prayers for you

My eyes still wait for you and my heart craves for your love

I may win this universe but my world lies in your hug

I can learn to fake smiles and how to let my feelings ignore
But it will always be a lie that no I don't love you anymore....

❤Kanya

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