kanya

It was a hectic day for me. Now it was midnight and my work was still not over. I was in so much tension. I had to submit an important report the next morning and I was feeling dizzy.I really needed a cup of hot coffee to awaken my mind. I looked at him but he was also busy in his work, gazing intently at his laptop screen as if its his only world where I don't exist. He is a workoholic. Sometimes I wonder whether he loves me more or his work. Gosh! What am I thinking about? I need to concentrate on my report. Unwillingly I started working again. Hardly 10 minutes had passed when he called out my name. 'Kanya' 'Yes...' I replied without looking at him. 'Can you please get me a cup of coffee. I am feeling tired and this presentation is really important for me. I have to complete it anyhow tonight.' He said in low voice. I could feel the tiredness in his voice but can't he see I am also working. 'I am working on an important report dear. Can you p...

💜December Diaries 💜 📚Part-1 He pulled her closer to him. She blushed. He gave a small peck on her forehead. She smiled. His lips traced their path to her lips. She savoured the moment in her heart. His hands explored her delicate body. She closed her eyes in ecstacy. His touch was soft yet intense. Her moans were louder yet hushed. His touch was rough yet tender. She was in pain yet feeling pleasure. The December night was chilled yet full of warmth. There were twists and twirls. There were screams and whispers. The moment was magical. The feeling was ecastic. She never felt so loved. She was overwhelmed. She looked at him. She could feel his gaze piercing through her soul. He was smiling. He gave a last look and turned to leave.  Her heart raced beneath her supple skin. She felt a lump in her throat. She tried to speak. She tried to call his name.But... but she doesn't know his name. Yes the one with whom she made love and surrendered herself,...

*No I don't love you anymore* No I don't think about you anymore... Its been days since we have moved apart And now I have given my life a fresh start Yet somewhere deep inside my soul There is a never ending piercing hole That reminds me I'll never be complete again The smile on my lips is nothing but a hidden pain..... No I don't miss you anymore I keep myself indulge in what I like Memories of old times help me survive I pour down feelings of my heart into words But, like you, words also seem to break my trust I end up staring at the blank space Time is moving ahead, I'm losing the race.... No I don't cry for you anymore Its not that I have forgotten my past I never thought our love will ever last My dreams still have your dark shadows When these shadows will stop appearing no one knows My eyes miss your presence but now they don't cry Forgetting you is impossible and now I don't even try.... No I don't feel lonely anymore I...

        The Fault Is In Our Stars (After one year of break when they met) He: You seem to move on. She: Kind of. He: Was it so hard? She: I don’t know what to say. He: What was the worst part of being apart? She: The day you left me you took my soul and all my happiness away from me. He: What hurt you most? She: I don’t know from where to start. It was not just those lonely nights, endless tears and painful memories that hurt me; it was knowing that I won’t be able to trust anyone again in my life. It was the broken trust that I had in you. It was holding on to memories and believing that your love for me was true and you will come back. It was pushing me into darkness. It was seeing myself deprived of all the love you had given to me. It was missing my own smiles and deadly silence that killed me bit by bit every moment. It was hating everything because everything around me had memories of you. It was sobbing silently in the dark nights and thinki...

'Shipra, Shipra, Shipra.... where are you???' She came running, shouting my name, inside my room like a storm, breathing heavily when I was engrossed in the world of words reading Inferno by Dan Brown . I looked at her. Her face beaming with happiness. A big grin stuck on her lips. Her hazel eyes, shining brightly. Her hairs flowing unevenly hiding her face partially.  She came and hugged me tightly. I hugged her back. She was breathless with her excitement.  'What happened?', I asked. Even if I hadn't asked I knew she was going to tell every bit of it anyway but I asked just to keep her enthusiasm. 'Shipra... you know what finally I have found the man of my dreams.', She was blushing like a teenager girl. 'He is such a sweetheart. He loves me more than anything. He promised me all the happiness of this world. He promised he will protect me from any evil of this world. He makes me feel like a princess. There is no one like him. I know he will kee...

                      *I Am Angry * I'm angry at the tears hidden behind my fake smile I may com e out strong as rock but inside I am so fragile... I'm angry at the healed wounds, which left scars on my heart They are healed for others but for me they are as fresh as a dew drop... I'm angry that I am unable to gather the broken pieces of me The more I try to gather them, the more shattered I feel... I'm angry that my heart still skips its beats when I hear your name I know that things have fallen apart but my love for you will never change... I'm angry that people are stranger to me even after we meet As if we are forced to encounter and pretend to be sweet... I am angry that no one will ever understand what I mean Even if I pour my heart into words and scream... I am angry that knowingly I put my life on stake Thinking that I have people to save me was my biggest mistake... I'm...

I wish you knew The smile that I wear is a lie It's only to mask the pain inside The real one is lost in the past The place where we drifted apart... I wish you knew My heart cries when I think of you No one sees those hidden tears The moments when others think I am smiling They don't know how much I wish you to be here... I wish you knew How painful it is to pretend that I am strong I have no words to explain what is wrong No one knows that I am dying inside And I wonder, like this for how long I will survive... I wish you knew In your absence I feel so empty and lost Your memories stalk me like a haunting ghost My lips murmur only your name all the time I miss the moments when I was your and you were mine... I wish you knew I can never be again on my own Tears accompany me when I am alone Every one thinks now I am set free No one knows I am trapped in the chains of misery... I wish you knew My all dreams and desires belonged to you No matter how har...