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*No I don't love you anymore* No I don't think about you anymore... Its been days since we have moved apart And now I have given my life a fresh start Yet somewhere deep inside my soul There is a never ending piercing hole That reminds me I'll never be complete again The smile on my lips is nothing but a hidden pain..... No I don't miss you anymore I keep myself indulge in what I like Memories of old times help me survive I pour down feelings of my heart into words But, like you, words also seem to break my trust I end up staring at the blank space Time is moving ahead, I'm losing the race.... No I don't cry for you anymore Its not that I have forgotten my past I never thought our love will ever last My dreams still have your dark shadows When these shadows will stop appearing no one knows My eyes miss your presence but now they don't cry Forgetting you is impossible and now I don't even try.... No I don't feel lonely anymore I...

        The Fault Is In Our Stars (After one year of break when they met) He: You seem to move on. She: Kind of. He: Was it so hard? She: I don’t know what to say. He: What was the worst part of being apart? She: The day you left me you took my soul and all my happiness away from me. He: What hurt you most? She: I don’t know from where to start. It was not just those lonely nights, endless tears and painful memories that hurt me; it was knowing that I won’t be able to trust anyone again in my life. It was the broken trust that I had in you. It was holding on to memories and believing that your love for me was true and you will come back. It was pushing me into darkness. It was seeing myself deprived of all the love you had given to me. It was missing my own smiles and deadly silence that killed me bit by bit every moment. It was hating everything because everything around me had memories of you. It was sobbing silently in the dark nights and thinki...

                      *I Am Angry * I'm angry at the tears hidden behind my fake smile I may com e out strong as rock but inside I am so fragile... I'm angry at the healed wounds, which left scars on my heart They are healed for others but for me they are as fresh as a dew drop... I'm angry that I am unable to gather the broken pieces of me The more I try to gather them, the more shattered I feel... I'm angry that my heart still skips its beats when I hear your name I know that things have fallen apart but my love for you will never change... I'm angry that people are stranger to me even after we meet As if we are forced to encounter and pretend to be sweet... I am angry that no one will ever understand what I mean Even if I pour my heart into words and scream... I am angry that knowingly I put my life on stake Thinking that I have people to save me was my biggest mistake... I'm...

            You’re Not Alone "The Castle"  written in big italic golden letters on the black graphite nameplate. How beautiful it looks. After so many prolonged discussions we’d decided this name for our newly built bungalow, two years back, before getting married. The memories of the day are still fresh when I came here after marriage. It was lavishly adorned with colorful flowers, illuminated with countless lights. Two years have bygone. It still looks marvelous. I close my eyes. Some images appear.  I’m wearing a red saree with matching golden blouse. My wrists are filled with red bangles. Intricate heena design is applied on my palms till my forearm. There are silver anklets in my legs. The tinkling sounds of bangles and my laughter are adding melody in the air. I’m running down the white marble stairs. He is running after me to catch me. He is just a few steps away. I turn back and tease him by waving his childhood...

Part-1 “The first time you fall in love, it changes you forever. And no matter how hard you try, the feeling never goes away…” Sounds philosophical.. Isn’t it? But actually its not. Here goes the explaination… I, Alisha D’costa, 25 years old model and a social activist, doing well in my career and have achieved more than I ever hoped for. Yet there is a void in my life. I feel there is something missing. My closed ones say it’s the feeling of being loved by someone is what I miss. But I don’t really agree with them. Yes, I love watching romantic movies and reading romantic fiction, but I feel this whole concept of being in love and loved by someone like they portrait in movies and books is totally overrated and hyped. I feel this love thing is seriously not made for me. To be precise I think love is simply waste of time. Today, I am travelling to Goa from Delhi for a shoot of an international fragrance brand. It’s just two and half hour flight. Goa is well known for sun kissed bea...